Guts spilled out on the floor
Like wires, knots and all
Wringing itself tightly
Consider laying here
forever
be a stain,
be rot.
Fantasize suicide,
Submerged in the cold air.
But like the sun, there is
Something elevating
About the depression
Some perspective above.
Giant, invisible
Observe the context, I’m
Indistinguishable
From the piles of trash below
And despite, I am flesh
The life hidden under
Adrenaline and spirit
Carried humanity far
Like a roach that won’t die
Or a colony of ants
Or some strange horror
That tears you apart
With one limb attached
As pieces come together
Then fall apart again,
Melt into the cracks between road tiles
The people and their proud civilizations
The units of their foundation.
Contain, and break,
And spill,
And redefine.
My cell still catches the midday rays
Warmth on the skin, blood and sun, my universe
Embracing itself
In Love and in Unity.
Like water, I survive
Like I have always done.
Keep the joy, hold it, put it somewhere that flows –
Despite,
Despite,
Despite.
Between layers of laws,
Things that hold,
Somewhere between gravity and oaths
is Destiny.
In this indifferent world,
I write when I’m bleeding.
Because the one who reveals her agony,
Is discarded as a burden.
But it’s easy to forget
When you’re in the city;
That nothing has been alone on earth,
Even in extinction.
That hair holds memories,
Even when it’s cut.
That all things must change,
Even when it’s final.
Ritual of creation,
Swim through the 4 billion strands of sea
Watch the waves weaving so seamlessly,
The embroider of history
